Letting go

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letting go is the hardest thing to do
especially when you don’t want to
but how do I keep holding on
when it’s practically dead
some things are better left unsaid
so I’ll keep these feelings to myself
let this (& you) go and begin the healing process
somehow I knew it’d come to this
despite the unexpectedness
shocked, a little, not much
gotta admit, nonetheless, I’m gonna miss ‘us’….
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The Photo

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When will I get the picture
Frames change,
Photos remain
Untouched, Unchanged
When will I realize
That love is no more than a box of lies
Tied up, sealed to deliver
to the first unsuspecting one
Unknowingly receptive
just to end up alone
Love is no more than a hoax
Believing it now–
Like I didn’t already know…

Restart

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I’ve got to restart
Rethink
Recuperate
I love you
But we both know this ain’t the same
What it used to be
Versus what it is
Neither of us wanted this
You lied when you gave in
It wasn’t real to begin with
No matter how much you try to pretend
Feelings change, true, but not to that extent…

Reminiscing

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Used to be so close,
Now I don’t know
What’s going on?
How did we get here?
Can you tell me honestly?
How can this be…
We’re slipping…
Fading…
This isn’t what’s supposed to happen…
I thought we were one,
But now I’m not so sure…
I don’t know you anymore…
I’m afraid to walk away,
Thinking you might change…
Thinking of the old you…
The one I used to know…
Where did you go?
The man I fell for…
You’re not him…
And I’m feeling alone…
Rejected and withdrawn…
I can’t remember the last time…
Hugs and kisses, I find myself reminiscing…
Is this how it ends?
No communication,
No more attention…
Feeling alone is just the beginning…
And frankly, I’m tired of reminiscing.

A Different Me

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a different side of me…aiming more to focus on the inner me…trying to gain clarity…too much at stake to just be happy…so i gotta keep pushin’, never stopping for the bullshit…wondering bout my next steps…if i should keep fightin’ or let it go with the rest…my dreams are slowly dyin, no hopes of revivin’, going and growing, still tryin’, but to no avail, so i’m left relyin’—on what i thought was a safe haven—realizin’ its been negated…null and void from the start…what do you do when ya aspirations fall through…ya go back to the drawing board and start anew…i gotta keep pushin’, never stopping for the bullshit…too much at stake to just be happy…tryin to gain clarity and focus more on the inner me…tryin to find inner peace…and find a better side to me…

It’s Been A While

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It’s been forever since we’ve truly spoken, calls & texts just aren’t the same…
It’s been forever since I’ve seen your smile, felt your touch, heard you call my name, yeah, it’s been a while…
It’s been forever since I’ve felt that way, a loss of inhibitions, no fear for the consequences…
It’s been forever since I’ve seen your face, kissed your lips, held your hand, yeah, it’s been a while…
It’s been forever since you’ve held me close, since I’ve been so open…
It’s been forever since I’ve told you so: that I love you, miss you, want you, yeah, it’s been a while…
It’s been forever since I’ve loved anyone this much, I so need a tune up…
It’s been forever since I’ve trusted this deep, could this be real or just a front, been so long it’s hard to tell…
…yes, it’s been a while…just keepin’ it real…

The Chemistry

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it’s one thing to be the “current”…but i wanna be his last…spending time & energy…the way he make me feel, it’s got to be the chemistry, that heats me up & keeps me high…can’t think of nowhere else i’d rather be than right there by his side…for now, forever, infinity, a lifetime…whatever the case may be, i know he’ll always be there when i need him to be…